Disorientation and dizziness are only the beginning of the intense, frightening, and overwhelming feelings that anxiety induces. From my personal experience and in-moment panicked episodes, I always feel like I’m mounting to a peak in my struggle, and even though I know I am going to come back down again, there is a moment – or a seemingly unending string of moments – in which I just sway at the top of that precarity. This work is an ongoing, experimental self-portrait that lets me put my experience into motion and helps me start to, and keep, climbing back down.
Tommy Bourque, digital video/animation, 6 min 49 sec loop, 2018